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[October 24, 2009 @ 3:49am] |
I am *so happy* that I re-discovered my old LJ after a two-year abandonment. I've recently taken up blogging and tracking myself on blogspot, but LJ is much better, since I've been here for many years and, most importantly, I get to customize layouts haha. I've been looking at my previous entries in shock... Needless to say, I was SO different back then and I've grown SO MUCH intellectually, emotionally, i.e. in every way possible. I'm a lot more independent and do not need anyone else (mostly males) to justify my existence or sense of self-worth. I'm a lot more into school than I was back then (first year uni), which was, ironically - in the relative view of my life - a time of intellectual senility in that i had a much diminished love of learning compared to right now and my younger days. the groups i joined back then amuse me lol and are still kind of interesting. i'm going to keep my old posts just to amuse myself hah. this "ang3lic_tears" username is rather embarrassing, but i would need a "purchasing token" to rename myself...
bed time!
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[November 26, 2007 @ 12:51am] |
nov 27
11:30 - bagel - 300
3:00 - muffin - 400
grapefruit snack - 80
coffee - 1.50
7: 00 - bagel - 300
total: 1,200
nov 28
11:30 - teriyaki - 250
2:00 - nugo bar - 200 -
6:30 - stuffed zucchini - 450
fruit - 80
coffee:
total: ~1,000
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[September 24, 2007 @ 12:32pm] |
3. Institutions and Events
A) seattle - world trade o organize meetings about trade - IMF there. trying to organize trade. Strike hand of neo-liberalism - wanted to find conclusion. Rich nations didn't let developing nations to sit at table. Porr countries couldn't participate. 50, 000 people in downtown seattle. They were against neoliberal agenda and current form of globalization.
B) Washington -
II) Gill's Argument
1. summary
2. Main Argumnet
A) Reason for failure
- Disciplinary
- Need new forms of political agency - new political forms. These movements are potentials. Set of potentials for radical change : human security, democracy, protection of environment, protection of human rights. Modern forms of state and politics quench the spirit of democracy. A lot of hope for protestors in seattle. radical reconstruction of politics. IMF and WTO were all about discpine. They discipline other states and citizens. Poor nations recognize that liberal agendas harm - need to critique disipline from rich nations. Mass majority was not there - no form for protest or dialogue. Another failure was US. US had all or nothing approach. Us wanted more - too much too fast. Even criticism among rich nations. Rich nations fought themselves and poor fought internally.
B) Four contradictions as the basis for global resistance
i) big capital and democracy - liberals tie in material and social progress. We have evolved socially and morally.
2) economics and social concerns - through restructuring, shift from state actors to non-state actors. Shift from labour and citizens to big economy, which puts social concerns on background. Global capital has more power. capital is getting bigger - economics is getting bigger. Capital will form another busienss. - another contradiction
3) capital and domestic lives - neoliberalism hurts women and hcildren - cut back funding for weakest members.
4) mono culture and diversity - e.g. monsanto, wipe out seeds and you ahve same plants for miles and miels.
C) Conclusion
- hypothesis: special kind of living organism - global crisis. Because of crisis, different people now work together. A lot more in common, becaise of merging of capital and private lives. understand each other better, new sentiments are forming political agency - new form of working together. New grass root movements - no leader or structure
- Machiavelli: the collective will - common element
- Gramsci updated the Prince: post modern myth
- Shaping of collective will is like how tree grows and forms over time. Primarily about democracy.
Post-modern myth - goes beyond modern forms of democracy, beyond forms we inherited - doesn't tie itself easily to party or leader.
Modernism values unity and sameness - same part of ideology. Identify with the PC party or the NDP party. Define X - focus on barrier or limitation, identity and differendce.
in contrast: Divides up diversity, many identities. Shared identities and overlapping identities. New social or globbal mvmt is different from IMF and WTo - WTo is very structured and collective modernism. In contrast, seattle is not like that. The problem with Seattle is thatthere were no leaders to talk to. What gets passed through media is vvery negative. New form of poticial agency is potential - can't figure out what it is, cuz it is still in beginning form. It is global and collective - spontaneous with lots of eneryg.
Concludes by saying that, in time, very powerful form of political energy. hope for world democracy. It will give us what we always wanted in west.. West always feared democracy, but did not give us control over affairs. Economy controlled by small, elite group of people.
Anti Global is negative, but media sees negative, wants to cast as positive.
Cautionary reflections on seattle (Sholte) - real work of WTO being disrupted.
1. The argument - overvalued protest and romanticized mvmt. Global mvmt doesn't have that potential. Misses power and inability. Don't have clearly defined vision. Without vision (being antiforce), but gill says they have dream and myth. They are diametrically opposed,
- Conceptionally inexact
- empirically thin - no evidence. e.g. in monoculture, acting on evidence not proveable.
Historically illiterate - little sense of history
- Normatively challenged - is shallow. certain things aught to be done. Against globalization
- Politically naive - think you can change through protest. Does WTO exist? yes. Didn't change ideology
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[September 21, 2007 @ 12:33pm] |
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States will be important
1. provides valueable services
2. Identity will not be lost - identity is strong enough for the nation-state to continue. We have sense of belonging. This increases the NS's ability to secure and maintain itself.
3. Stability and security - militarily, welfare, education - control on power
Descriptively they disagree, but normally they agree. Lot less difference in opinion. Strange thinks they are being eroded. both agree state should exist. Maybe new forms of associations are happening. Challenge notion of state. If state isn't dead - look at where state should exist.
Battle of Seattle: turning point against globalization? New political party and structure. Seattle w
as where WTO were held.
1 . Background
A) Global social movements: non-state groups that organize transnationally for protest issues and events. Non-state groups that organize transnational, usually to protest issues or events, the environment, peace, economics and so on.
B) Post modernism - reaction to modernism. an approach that denis teh existence of a single, fixed reality and pays special attention to texts and speech... to how people actually write and speak about a subject. More with what they do than say. Nation-State is product of modernism - rationalize relationships. Reaction against older, modern conceptions. a protest in seattle not organized - more about passion and affect.
through taxation and sense of identity, you abstract what is reall. Rationalize concepts - movements within us that never liked the state. Sep of church and state, religion is more and more dominant. Should tradition, feelings and attitudes have no role to play in state - in modern notion, it shouldn't. There4 u suppress religion, cultures. These are mere abstractions. Course of power suppresses and represses.
Gill is saying that movements of diversity should express themselves - not suppress - play role in public dimensiona nd political role.
Mod - nationstate
PS - diversity is ok - don't need head and leader
PM - 1989 1990, USSR collapsed and lauched PM era. 262 definiition
B) set of conditions particularly poli, material and ecological that are giving rise to new forms of poli agency whose defining myths are associated with the quest to ensure human and intergenerational security on and for the planet, as well as democratic human development human rights.
2. Machiavelli and Gramsci - Gramsci wants to release energies. Wanted political party from bottom up, unlike Marx. Two influes Gill looks at. Grass Root movements released, we will have new poli association, but suppressed. state functiosn as brick well. Fascism and state are the same in the 30's. Need vital energies to renew themselves, ressurrect and grow.
Institutions and Events
A) Seattle- form new global trade arrangement. All players there - lower subsidies for people, better access, bring in poor developing nations to give them a hand. Clamoured for more access to advanced markets. Americans protected textile, clothing - open up things Americans produce.
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[August 22, 2007 @ 10:14am] |
1. get back to 123 - friday
2. 121 - sunday
3. 120 -august 27
4. 118 - august 29
5. 116 - september 1
6. 114 - september 3
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[July 05, 2007 @ 8:00am] |
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i dno if anyone remembers me, but i was here a while ago. anyway, i`m on an exchange program right now and we`re bombarded with FOOD every minute. last night, i totally let myself go, because literally everyone was bingeing and it was after i`d been doing so well for like a week. wish me luck :)
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[May 20, 2007 @ 10:07pm] |
goals
may 25: 115
June 4th: 111
June 8th: 110
June 15: 108
June 22: 106
June 28: 104
July 1st: 103
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[May 07, 2007 @ 12:16am] |
safe foods:
i eat these all the time without guilt
- egg whites
- most vegetables
- hunt's gel snacks
- gelatin mixes
- coffee with splenda
- sugar-free drink mixes
- nestea with splenda
- sugar-free gum
acceptable foods eaten with control:
these are good, but still have significant calories
- apples and pears with mostly skin
- strawberries, grapefruit, oranges
- soy ground beef
- ketchup
- soy sauce
- 15 cal dressing
- carrots
- edamame
acceptable foods in moderation:
slightly more calories and might cause binges, but are ok in controlled portions
- low fat tofu
- oat bran
- papaya
- mango
- grapes
- skim and unsweetened soy milk
- fat-free philly cream cheese
- fat-free, sugar-free yogurt
- fat-free cheese
- veggie breakfast patties
- low-fat breast meat
- smart pop
- yams with mostly skin
fruits and vegetables to avoid:
evil fruits and veggies
- bananas: taste too good and are high cal
- watermelon: too good to be true so i eat it non-stop
- potatoes: too starchy and i love them too much
- taro: also starchy
treats eaten with control:
- cappuccino w/ skim milk
- sugar-free pudding
rare treats:
foods i allow myself once in a while
- sugar-free hard candy
- weight watcher's chocolate
- haw flakes
- flavoured milk
- veggie wraps from cafeteria
scary foods:
i try to avoid these on their own, even though they occur in other foods
- olive oil
- most cooking oil
- egg yolks
- butter
- margarine
- jam
- non-diet pop
- fruit juice
- real sugar
- whole milk
- corn syrup
- white flour
- pasta
- beef, pork
foods that cause binges:
i have horrible memories associated with all these foods
- peanut butter (worst trigger ever)
- sesame paste
- ramen
- ice cream
- haw flakes
- bread
- margarine
- toasted bread with margarine (horrible)
- steamed buns
- muffins
- burritto filling
- pizza
- chips
- munchies
- crackers
- sesame crackers
- cereal
- fries
- granola bars
- muffin mix
- cookies
- cake
- chocolate
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[April 30, 2007 @ 9:44pm] |
grapefruit - 100
eggs - 100
vegetables - 50
gb - 60
bites - 100
haw - 250
apples - 50
evernew - 60
nutriall - 30
muffin - 100
tomato sauce - 40
yogurt - 50
cheese - 30
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[April 09, 2007 @ 11:59pm] |
bread - 110
egg white - 60
milk - 20
apple - 50
pita - 75
vegetables - 50
dressing - 50
smoothie - 100
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[April 09, 2007 @ 1:51pm] |
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ok so i was down to 123, which is amazing. it was after a day of chocolate and carb binges and a day of almost fasting, but i exercised both days. then yesterday, on easter, i was supposed to do 1200, but that went down the drain right after breakfast. i had some egg whites, chicken noodle and then a LOAD of dried tofu. then i had lentil soup, chicken noodle and a load of fried rice. after lunch, it was papaya and chocolate eggs, which i had been craving so badly. i had planned to skip dinner, but i ended up eating 6 egg rolls, vegetables and a shitload of haw flakes. damn, what a fat day. today, i'm still going strong with the semi-fast. tomorrow will be a healthy day of 1,200 :D
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| food log |
[April 01, 2007 @ 10:48pm] |
1 egg - 70
egg whites - 75
oil - 60
almonds - 100
soymilk - 80
seaweed - 30
cheese - 80
gelatin cups - 20
drink mix - 10
egg whites - 50
eggplant - 25
cauliflower - 25
mayo - 40
lettuce - 20
margarine - 35
chicken breast - 30
tuna - 35
pumpkin seeds - 40
tuna - 140
cucumbers - 20
cocoa power - 20
sardines - 50
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| today |
[March 26, 2007 @ 7:20pm] |
i completely resisted that muffin and smoothie. wow, it must be working. just keep going now!
b
tuna - 30
cheese - 30
vegetables - 30
mayo - 50
soy - 20
total:160
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vegetables - 50
dressing - 50
egg - 60
dressing - 40
total: 200
snack
cheese - 30
turkey - 40
fish - 100
tuna - 20
egg - 60
total: 250
dinner
seed- 200
turkey and fish - 50
total: 250
tomorrow, only one slice of cheese and burn a few hundred later.
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| today |
[March 24, 2007 @ 2:46pm] |
breakfast:
120 - light soy milk
10 - sweeteners
20 - calcium chew
20 - extras
10 - v8
lunch:
cheese - 30
tuna - 50
zucchini - 10
total: 270
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[March 20, 2007 @ 5:54pm] |
breakfast:
tofu - 100
veggie burger - 80
vegetables - 50
total: 230
lunch:
tofu - 100
coffee - 20
almonds - 30
vegetables - 20
total: 170
dinner:
tofu - 70
mayo - 30
gum - 50
veggie burger - 40
almonds - 30
seeds - 30
total: 250
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| today |
[March 08, 2007 @ 5:00pm] |
totally skipped school today, cuz i'm sick. lol, i ate a lot and i don't think i burned that much off.
b - slim fast bar - 234
bran cereal - 100
soy milk - 40
rice crackers - 50
two oranges - 120
peach - 100
bk veggie burger - 150
tortilla - 20
bag of popcorn - 100
yogurt - 50
ok, that's a whopping 964 calories
let's say i burned around 400 doing walking and stuff. that's still a shit load of food!
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[March 04, 2007 @ 9:04pm] |
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just burned 350 on treadmill. now i should study for bio and g1 and do some resistance later
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